Q: I have committed so much sin in my life. there is no hope for me. I get away from one sin to another. And after a while i see myself back in that same sin. I feel like my heart became dark that the quran doesn’t have effect on it. I listened to lectures and fail to follow what it said. When i go to islamic events such as conference, I feel guilty of all my sins, and just want to repent. After a while I see myself in that same spot again. when I was young i was really good muslim but now i feel like there is no place for me in this world. I started to hate myself, and lost connection with my family. I tried to find a good companion, but couldnt find one. My only good source for me to learn about islam is thru youtube. I dont know where to start from, i fee like I am lost n no hope for me. I disobed my Creator so many times, and he always gives me a chance, but now i feel like he give up on me because I failed n ruined my life.
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